This One's For the Brokenhearted

     When I first thought about starting a blog I was very skeptical and nervous I wouldn't have much to write about. However, I hoped it could be an encouragement to others. So, I decided to share my story. I do want to make the most of every opportunity that God gives me and live my life to the fullest. But sadness and disappointments are a part of life too. And that is where I am today. Life is not always easy and fun. And so in an effort to keep it real here I am going to write about the hard stuff too. 
     Ever pray really hard for something? I mean, earnestly cry out to God like never before for direction in a certain area of your life? That's what I've been trying to do for a while. Then, I started to see my requests getting answered. I really believed God heard me and was about to bless me. And just when I thought I had things figured out, that's when nothing happened the way I thought it would. Talk about hard! Isaiah 55:9-10: "For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways, " says the Lord. "For as the heavens are higher that the earth, So are My ways higher than your ways, And My thoughts than your thoughts." Isn't that the truth!!! I always try to get ahead of Him. Not intentionally---I just wish so much that I could see the end of the story, to know what will happen next. But I do not have that ability. Only God knows the whole story. After all, He's the One who is writing it! But it is still so heartbreaking to pour out my heart and still not know the purpose of a certain situation or why certain things happen. All I can do is trust Him. Trust that He is in it and that He is accomplishing His purpose whatever it happens to be. But sometimes that is so difficult to do. I can say that I feel God has revealed more of Himself to me through it all. Which is amazing! If He didn't give me this, I wouldn't have drawn closer to Him during it. Maybe trials are simply opportunities to know Him more and depend on Him. So by the grace of God, that is what I'm going to do. Depend on and trust Him, and in doing that-know Him. What a privilege! So if you are going through a difficult time that has left you brokenhearted, I hope that you will depend on and trust Him. He is in control and knows what is going on. He has a plan even though we don't always understand it. 

~ The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. Psalm 34:18

~ Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your paths. Proverbs 3:5-6

~ Meanwhile, the moment we get tired in the waiting, God's Spirit is right alongside helping us along. If we don't know how or what to pray, it doesn't matter. He does our praying in and for us, making prayer out of our wordless sighs, our aching groans. He knows us far better than we know ourselves, knows our pregnant condition, and keeps us present before God. That's why we can be so sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good. Romans 8:26-28 MSG

I absolutely love butterflies!!! As I was writing this tonight, I went outside and just happened to see a beautiful moth (cousin to the butterfly, lol) outside my door. I couldn't help but think God sent it to brighten my day. It even opened its wings right when I went to snap some pictures of it. I found this poem called The Butterfly's Struggle. It is so relevant to what I'm writing about and I do not think it is a coincidence. God is so good to me!

The Butterfly's Struggle

Author Unknown

A man found a cocoon of a butterfly. One day a small opening appeared. He sat and watched the butterfly for several hours as it struggled to force its body through that little hole.

Then it seemed to stop making any progress. It appeared as if it had gotten as far as it could, and it could go no further. So the man decided to help the butterfly. He took a pair of scissors and snipped off the remaining bit of the cocoon.

The butterfly then emerged easily. But it had a swollen body and small, shriveled wings. The man continued to watch the butterfly because he expected that, at any moment, the wings would enlarge and expand to be able to support the body, which would contract in time. 

Neither happened! In fact, the butterfly spent the rest of its life crawling around with a swollen body and shriveled wings. It never was able to fly.

What the man, in his kindness and haste, did not understand was that the restricting cocoon and the struggle required for the butterfly to get through the tiny opening were God's way of forcing fluid from the body of the butterfly into its wings so that it would be ready for flight once it achieved its freedom from the cocoon.

Sometimes struggles are exactly what we need in our lives. If God allowed us to go through our lives without any obstacles, it would cripple us. We would not be as strong as what we could have been. We could never fly!

Butterflies/moths: does my heart good :)

Absolutely beautiful